11 April, 2009
Easter...........most of us grew up with it and all the symbols surrounding this great day. But how many of us really understand it? I didn't for years, and to be honest, i'm not sure i really grasp it to this day. But i have a fuller understanding of it this year than ever before. I've been a christian for over 7 years and yet i still struggle to understand the full meaning of what really happened that wknd over 2ooo years ago. I know what happened to my heart when Jesus Christ stepped in and took control, but what exactly does all that mean? It's a miracle, one that we can't argue with. I had an experience this past week that put into sharp focus who Darla really is without Christ, and i realized that i still deserve hell. All the good things i do or have done, all the "right" things that are a part of my life, they do nothing to make me holier or more righteous in God's eyes. I am still a desperate human, without anything good in me and if i stood in front of God this moment, i would deserve for Him to point away and tell me to leave, He doesn't know me. I realized that this week and i realized it without fear or condemnation but with total understanding. There's only one thing that keeps me from eternal hell and that's the passionate love of a Father for His daughter, and the passionate love of a Savior for a sin sick world. In and of myself, i deserve nothing more than the worst, but it's in realizing this and throwing myself at the foot of that cross, that i gain eternity.