07 August, 2010

We have internet.............

and mice.......(the bounty number is at 9) and flies. Lots of them, zooming around my head, sitting on my food. I'm thankful for the the internet, not so much for the mice and flies. Farming. It's not for the fainthear-ted. Each time we catch yet another mouse i grow up just a bit more. I still scream like a banshee when Eric brings in a toad the size no toad should be, scaring my poor father half out of his wits and causing Eric to wonder why his mama is such a wimp. He stomps mice on the head, puts milkers on large animals, and runs the skidloader with confidence. It puzzles him to see me act like a female. I, on the other hand, stare in amazement at my rapidly maturing son. I am seriously impressed at his fearlessness.

It's been quite a month. One month ago we moved in and i wondered if we had lost our minds once and for all. I decided i didn't want to do this after all and i drove away from our other house, the van full to the top with stuff, tears filling my eyes. And i grew up some more.

I now can make a farmers breakfast with ease, finding joy in serving my growing men. Emily and i wash innumerable dishes and hang out an unbelievable amount of stained jeans. My little men have a continual ring of dirt around some part of their body and we're learning that cows have personalities. Unfortunately the small terrier that wanders around here does not. We're hoping it will do us a favor and die, but so far no such luck.

It's been a tough month, a stretching month, full of fluctuating emotions alternating between discouragement and fulfillment. And yet when it comes down to it there's only one option. To do the next thing and to do it with the best of our abilities. To pray for faith to keep walking in spite of the ups and sometimes serious downs, and in the middle of it all, to remember the first and foremost reason we are doing this in the first place. To walk with our children according to Deuteronomy 6.

5 comments:

  1. Ah, Darla!

    So good to hear your voice again! I can tell you are growing up!! :-)

    I miss you bunches. (Let us know when you want some chickens and we'll find a way to get 'em to you!) You post made me think of this verse:

    Luke 9:62 (King James Version)

    62 And Jesus said unto him, No man, having put his hand to the plough, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God.

    So, don't look back! Keep your eyes forward and up! I know the work being done in you is glorious!!!

    Love you!

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  2. Yea! There you are again and as witty as ever! Keep the witt - it helps on those days of "I can't do this ANYMORE! I want off this farm!". One of our friends once said that "farmers are a different breed of people" so welcome to the breed of farmers (or crazy people maybe). Blessings! Some time when you are able will be email your phone # and address? Thanks!

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  3. I am SOOO glad to see you back!! I miss your posts.. i miss you. Happy thought though.. tomorrow night!! We're looking forward to it!

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  4. Welcome Back, Darla! So good to hear from you and even better it was great to visit with you the other Sunday! Keep looking up my friend! You are such a blessing and God will continue to bless you as you continue to grow in Him! You are an amazing woman! Keep up the good work! Love you, Jewel

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  5. Hi Darla! Is great to "hear" from you again! I've been thinking about you and wondering how things are going on the farm! I don't think I'd make a a very good farmers wife... You are my hero! :) Looking forward to coming out there... hopefully this fall sometime! Sending my love & prayers, Dawn

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